Will I...

Wow. 
It's been like, 100 years since my last blog entry. LOL. 
I feel kinda guilty for being so inconsistent (ha. what's new). haha. Anyway, it's never too late to start again, I guess. And besides, ako lang naman ang nag-babasa neto (with a few exceptions, of course)...so here goes.

Ok, so I'm done with my enrollment na (Grabe, hindi pala talaga biro ang enrollment), and ilang days nalang pasukan nanaman. 

Strange enough, I'm honestly happy that vacation's almost over. (YEAAAAH!) 

Things get so boring here (yeah, even with the internet and all that), and I HATE boredom as much as I hate hectic school days. 

Speaking of school, I might as well mention how my grades went flying off the window last sem. Haha. Well, I passed all my subjects. Yipee! Just kidding. I failed my Math 1 subject. (T.T) My GWA was something like 2. 80 something, which is pretty low, but I wasn't exactly aiming for high scores last semester which pretty much explains a lot of things. *sighs*

Yeah, of course I'm sad, embarrassed, and freakin' disappointed with myself because of that, but I can't really do anything about it anyway, so i'm just looking at the bright side and hope I would do better this coming semester. Oh Hell Yeah I Would Do Better This Semester. I just paid P10,654.00 (they still put me in bracket B. so unfair) nung enrollment and I am so not going to waste that. 

Yeah! I am gonna do my best this sem!!

and y'all be like this. haha.

Hmmm. I wonder what's gonna happen this coming semester... 


Will I fail again? or will I excel this sem? 
Will I get things straight this time? 
Will I be good? 
Will I be able to get back on the right track? 
Will I be able to balance my time? 
Will I overcome my laziness and procrastination? 
Will I join an org?
Will I look for a job?
Will I focus on my acads?
Will I focus on myself?
Will I focus on God and my spiritual life?
Will I be able to renew my passion for Him again?
Or will I just continue to fall apart?
Will I be able to wait?
Will I still love him?
Will I get myself a cellphone?
Will I shut up?
Will I...


Ugh. I'm so full of random "will I's" in my head. I just wish I had all the answers to these questions. I'm so tired of guessing on what would be the outcome of my life. I'm afraid to make plans, too, 'cause it just might not work out and I'll just end up frustrated. *sighs*
You know what? Whatever. I'll just leave it all to God and see what happens. He's in charge of my future, that's for sure. I worry too much, so I just need to work out my faith in Him, I guess... :D